Leaving Limbo

In the last 5 days I have finally moved on to "real life". I don't say that because I think real life doesn't start until you become a mother, but because this is truly the first time since high school (almost 4 years ago) that I understand my role and what I want to do with it. I have been living in limbo for the past few years, and now things just make more sense.

Erik and I were recently talking about how living life without concrete goals can lead to depression. I know this has to do with the uneasy and unhappy feelings I have had over the years, but now so many things have been put neatly into perspective for me.

I now have concrete goals concerning my health, my career, and my family. All things I have never had. I have an ideal weight and a plan to get there. I have an intense need to graduate and actually start working in a career position as opposed to just a job. I have the most beautiful person in the world lying in my lap right now, and the perfect match for me to help me keep her safe. I think this little girl has something (and by something I mean everything) to do with my newfound determination to succeed.